Chhoti si asha

It is a beautiful day. I can feel its beauty as I sit alone watching through my window. I want to go out, breathe  the freshness of the season and take a break! Its fall break after all! Someone has put my life on a Fast Forward..I wish to Pause it for a while. I listen (thankfully it is in the Play mode :P)..

Dil hai chhota sa, chhoti si asha

Masti bhare mann ki, bholi si asha

I want to be up in the mountains, under a clear sky and surrounded by flowers!

Mehek Jaun mein, aj to aise

Phool bagiyaan mein, meheke hain jaise

Badalon ki mein, odhu chunariyan

Jhool jau mein, banke bawariya

Apni choti mein, bandh loon duniya

Not knowing how I can possibly enjoy this weather all by myself and by sitting at home, I let my imagination free...
I am standing on the very edge of a cliff. I open my arms to embrace the nature. I feel the wind blowing on my face. Its chilly, but I love it. I can hear flowing water and rustling trees nearby. I feel my life.

Swarga se dharti, khil rahi aise

Mera mann bhi to, khil raha aise

Koyal ki tarah, gaane ka armaan

Macchli ki tarah, machlu yeh armaan

Javani hai layi, rangeen sapna

I ask my life, "Where have you been? I have been looking for you!". Life replied back, "I am always inside you. But now I have opted out of being with you at your usual 'hangouts'. I feel suffocated. You know where to find me - outside your routinized mind; on a route that you don't take everyday; and in all those places where you feel your life is not on a Fast Forward mode! So hurry up, look for them! You don't have all your life! After all you also want to live it, Don't you? ;)"

Dear me,

Why have you become so clueless about what you want to do in life?

Don't you love challenges? Don't you love working your ass off day and night? Doesn't it give you the greatest satisfaction? Don't you love studying (weird but true) and sometimes even prefer sacrificing enjoyable moments with friends or family for studying??

Where are YOU?!! Please find yourself back - don't ask me how!

Just find yourself back. Remember your ultimate goal is to make a difference in the world - by being pragmatic and technologically advanced on one side, and moral, ethical and aware of the pain and sufferings in the world on the other.

Love,
me

People reading this post, have you ever felt lost before? Please comment!

Love this piece of writing!

Co-Exist

Why is it difficult for people to understand the meaning of "coexistence"? Maybe I fail to define it or people are too driven by the competition to understand it!

Patience is a virtue(al)

There is one thing I have realized by now...being an expert requires patience. And patience is something that I am losing each day along with some hair and my mind! haha. But I have to remind myself about what I am here for- to gain 'Master'y! To become an expert-well, at least begin the process of becoming one! Patience dear, patience..

Isi bat par ek kavita hojaye

Prashno ke uttar likh likh ke,
Marks to bohot milale tune,
Subah-shyam pustakein padh ke,
Tpper ka khitab bhi milaya tune,
Ab wakt hai aage badhne ka,
Khud apni pustak likhne ka,
Agar kar na paya haasil ye mukam,
to kis cheeze ka Master kehlayega
tu?

Haha. I watch too much Sarabhai vs. Sarabhai!

One of my favorite Bollywood songs...

Dhundhla jaayein jo manzilein
Ik pal ko tu nazar jhuka
Jhuk jaaye sar jahan wahin
Milta hai rab ka raasta
Teri kismat tu badal de
Rakh himmat bas chal de
Tere saathi mere kadmon ke hain nishaan
Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda

Khud pe daal tu nazar, Haalaton se haar kar
Kahaan chala re
Haath ki lakeer ko, Modta marodta,
Hai hausla re
Toh khud tere khwabon ke rang mein
Tu apne jahan ko bhi rang de
Ke chalta hoon main tere sang mein
Ho shaam bhi toh kya
Jab hoga andhera
Tab paayega dar mera
Uss dar pe phir hogi teri subah
Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda

Mitt jaate hain sabke nishaan
Bas ek woh mitt ta nahin haye
Maan le jo har mushkil ko marzi meri haye
Ho humsafar na tera jab koi
Tu ho jahan rahunga main wahi
Tujhse kabhi na ik pal bhi main judaa
Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda,
Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda..

A decision

I think more often than you know about the decision that changed everything in between us. I ask myself if it was right one. I wonder often. Did I hurry? Was it right? Maybe. Maybe not. I will probably never know. Or when I do, it will be too late. Too late to turn back to you. Too late to walk back to the place where we left each other.       

My heart feels light now...

Survive

Clemson is teaching me to survive...

It is not about money only..it is about being betrayed, being victimized to the double faced nature of people..

This time I know I am right - because I have matured and I am being fair.

Note to self: No need to doubt